I can honestly say, being one for three, now one for four with this latest pregnancy, I didn’t expect to be here; here feeling as if I will be giving blood for months to come watching hormone levels slowly, slowly fade away. But when does one ever, truly, expect a loss. If anything, I would guess most of us are hopeless optimists every single time two pink lines appear. Every single time.
I didn’t expect to need my husband to make the mac-n-cheese, and peel all the tangerines, and build with blocks, and give all the baths (to Jax, hah!), and straightened the house. I needed him to do it, because I couldn’t do any of it. Not just because physically I couldn’t, but there was a part of me that was so shocked, because I didn’t expect to be here. Maybe it was a false sense of security watching my “orie” asking, little mimicker of all words running around my kitchen island yelling–because that’s the level little boys live at–”good girl” at the dog while trying to grab her tail. I still remember what it felt like to lose a pregnancy, but after having Ajax, I felt secure, maybe even thinking that having a healthy, successful pregnancy was a turning point. I didn’t expect to be re-living another loss. I just didn’t expect it.
I think I look pretty normal today; wearing makeup and my favorite Steve Madden sneakers and I’m laughing. Laughing at Ajax playing peek-a-boo as he covers his ears instead of his eyes. I think that’s how life is suppose to sort of pick back up and move forward. Even as we’re wading through emotions and frustrations and fears of the unknown, life simultaneously keeps moving forward. There are still smiles to be smiled, things to be thankful for and days to be lived. Beautiful days to be lived right along side the heart-break and tears. And that’s where I’m at, unexpectedly.
I know what you’re thinking. You didn’t see a pair of overalls in my winter capsule wardrobe. Caught red-handed. I definitely bought these after I finished my capsule. Such a rule-breaker. What’s funny is I’ve been protesting overalls since they started making their comeback. Something about them put me right back into eighth grade and awkward. Until I saw this photo…
I instantly knew I could wear overalls again. Still holding out in protest against short overalls (and it’s winter) but I immediately went on the hunt for a pair. I even tracked down this pair, and they’re adorable. Free People, $98. A little more than I wanted to spend on a pair of pants I just decided I wanted to wear. So I hunted in all the usual cheaper places. Maybe because it was December, or because I had protested so long that people were over overalls, but I kept striking out.
Oh a whim I walked into…. eeehhhmm, Hollister.
They had overalls, in my size, 60% off. Score! Except I was slightly embarrassed to be making a purchase here as I WAS the oldest person in the store, by like 10 years, so I asked for a gift receipt with my purchase. My purchase which was obviously for my niece. And now “my niece” wears overalls all the time…
They’re not skinny jeans like my inspiration picture, but they’re probably the only pair of boyfriend style jeans I’ve put on that I actually like on my body. I love that they’re distressed, I love the wash. I laugh at myself for wearing something from Hollister and totally loving them. I will admit it, I wear them all the time. Hah.
Would you wear overalls?
overalls / Hollister shirt / Gap (similar)
vest / J.Crew Factory (similar) – booties / Old Navy (similar)
I know people hate on Pinterest (I have my own opinion about that) but I love love love scrolling through all the pictures and recipes. I get so many ideas and direction from Pinterest. God bless you people who created you!
I was on Pinterest before Christmas and I spotted this pin. I knew there would be no way I could do this Christmas, but I thought that this might make a perfect winter item! Jen offered a free antler printable which I printed out in two different sizes to match my hoops. Also, side note. There are soooo many cute hoop art tutorials on Pinterest! I might have to do one more.
It was a pretty easy DIY. I got to sit on the couch, watch a little TV, and finish this project! Both of the hoops didn’t take long at all, and I love how sewing the antlers down slightly puffed them up and made them look more “antlery”. Not to mention that I just happened to have the perfect color of felt on hand to match the colors in my living room.
I love these perfect winter antlers and the use of hoops in my home decor! Have you made any hoop art?
It was super weird to be at home with just Ajax this week. The husband had to go back to work, which was not my idea. If I was in charge of the Army, vacation would be like deployments; much longer than originally scheduled, end date always getting pushed back, and so long that you forget what life was like beforehand. Anyone else on board? And for you non-military people… picture a really, really, really long business trip to somewhere remote where they have to use things like satellite phones and eat things like goat for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
I’ve rounded up a few of my favorite things this week! Are you currently crushin’ on any of these?
favorite for the babe