A week or so ago, Ajax had his first sleepover. It was with grandparents, which made it a little easier on my heart. It was just a random weekday night, but I did have a book club meeting so off I went to enjoy a drink and chatting about books. After having the initial emotions of leaving Jax for a whole freakin’ night, I enjoyed a night out. Since I didn’t have to rush home, a girlfriend and I grab a drink after book club, and by 11pm, I was snuggled in my bed, sound asleep. I woke up the next morning at the same time I am now programmed to wake up, 6am.
Here me when I say this, Ajax is not a burden. He is literally one of the best things in my life. But I woke up that morning carefree. I didn’t have a thing I had to do. Well, until Roxann whined for a minute straight so I would take her outside. I had grand plans of grabbing coffee and a donut, reading and writing all morning at Starbucks…but I didn’t make it out of my bed. I just laid there with my coffee and watched tv. I may not of done all the things I had planned in my head, but it was so renewing and so refreshing to not be a caregiver for one morning.
You know when you’ve been running, and it sucks, but you’re still running. It’s only when you stop running that you realize how hard that run really was. (Well, I’m pretty sure that’s how it goes with running… I haven’t done it in years…because it sucks.) Getting that break, that one morning of no one depending on me but Roxann, and lets be honest, she isn’t that much work. That break, as amazingly renewing as it was, also equally reminded me that it.is.hard.being.a.parent. And it’s hard single mommin’ it–even with my super easy, scheduled, always sleeps almost-toddler.
I know I won’t have to carry the load forever. God willing, I’ll have a husband and co-parent back soon. Deployments aren’t forever, even if they sometimes feel like it. But that one restful morning reminded me that it’s hard doing this alone, and, it’s okay to say that it’s hard. It’s not complaining, it’s just hard. That’s usually pretty tough for me to admit.
So far, in the limited time I’ve been a parent, single mommin’ it has been one of the toughest challenges. By no means the only one, but a tough one. I’d love to know what your toughest parenting challenge has been!
Officially, fall doesn’t start until September 23rd, and since Colorado can pack all four season into one day, we still, sometimes, get to dress for summer. So I’ve got the cutest little boy in one very summery outfit! He’s been wearing it all summer, and I finally snapped a few pics of this outfit that really reminds me of a little Cali boy. And I’m still dying over his Converse… hands down the cutest and best sneakers he’s owned. I’m from PA… they’re called sneakers.
/ Shirt : Pumpkin Patch / Shorts : Pumpkin Patch / Shoes : Converse /
I’ve got two outfits from my Fall capsule wardrobe. It might be harder taking pictures of the clothes than it was picking out the clothes….I will most likely move to a standard background, but until I get it set up, you’ll get a glimpses of my house, and possible some random toys. My plan is to do two outfits at a time when I share how I’m wearing the clothes currently in my closet. Here it goes…
This was the first outfit I reached for, which kinda surprised me, because I love the idea of loose shorts, but all summer I’ve struggled with what looks good with them, without looking frumpy. Turns out, I just needed a light sweater with just a little structure to make me feel confident.
The shoes I’m wearing in my night look remind me of Birkenstocks in a wedge. They are shoes I bought three years ago from Old Navy. And even though I’m 99% of the time a flat’s girl, if I had a husband home to go out with, throwing a little height and sparkly necklace takes this outfit to a perfect date night outfit. Instead, I’ll just pour myself a glass of wine and date myself…on our couch with a Redbox. Come home husband.
shorts / Marshalls
shirt / Old Navy
shoes / Nine West
shorts / Marshalls
shirt / Old Navy
shoes / Old Navy (old)
necklace / Forever 21 (very old)
This shirt is a little dressier than what I’d normally reach for, but I was headed out later that day to grab a few hours to myself while the little man was in daycare, so I didn’t mind wearing something a little more dressy.
My bow sandals are truly some of my favorite shoes I’ve ever had (third summer wearing them!) and I’m a little sad that I don’t think they’ll make it through another summer. I love how feminine they are (LC was always my favorite!).
shirt / Marshalls
jeans / Gap (similar)
shoes / LC Lauren Conrad
Oh, and that was for real my coffee…second cup of the day. Just cream.
When my mom was in town, we got a little crafty and made fall wreaths. I had pinned these pics earlier, and wanted a very similar wreath. So we stopped at Michaels and picked up a few supplies to make our wreaths: felt and grapevine. I already had the twig wreath and a hot glue gun.
And I looooove it! It’s been hanging on my front door since we finished, even though it was in August.
It was a pretty easy wreath to put together, and I love the colors! Do you have a fall wreath on your door yet?